Emotional Spillovers

Here I am again. It’s just me and the little stories in my head. My little ones who haunt me and bug me throughout the day. I can live with just me and them but it will drive me insane. I will go on each day trying to silence them but almost four years of doing that everyday proved futile. I am still sure that this is not where I am supposed to be and I think that at this point in my life, that is a very bad thing to say. I’d like to believe that it takes guts to admit that you made wrong decisions in your life and you are now paying the price. I just hope it will not be too tedious or too long. I am still looking forward to another chapter of happiness and self-fulfillment but for now, let me be.

On a really unrelated matter, I just really think that I fucked up so bad. But it believe that it gets better.

It’s truly shitty when you try so hard not to pity yourself. 

jerany:

Try to find the error. It’s impossible. 

AAA 
BBB 
CCC 
DDD 
EEE 
FFF 
GGG 
HHH 
III 
JJJ 
KKK 
LLL 
MMM 
NNN 
OOO 
PPP 
QQQ 
RRR 
SSS 
TTT 
UUU 
VVV 
WWW 
XXX 
YYY 
ZZZ 

Did you know that 80% of UCSD students could not find the error above? Repost this with the title “what’s wrong here”, and when you click “post “, the answer will be really obvious.

notestomyfutureboyfriend:

I don’t ask for much. I don’t want you to spend money on me. I like things to be equal. Sometimes I would like to take us to dinner. I will cuddle you to death, and love you with all I have. I hope you understand my obsession with the internet. I hope you understand my past, and will love me for who I am. I won’t try to change you, so please don’t try to change me. 

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After all the heightened emotions and sensations yesterday, here I am in my room still in pajamas and hair uncombed. Hahaha I love lazy days. :)

No class tomorrow but as a new birth year celebration I am going to the gym tomorrow! Hurray for me!

goodolmoon:

I’M FAIRLY SURE THAT’S ALL OF THEM

SO GLORIOUS. OMG I LOVE YOU GUISE.

I just want to embark on this day with this simple reminder of how lucky and truly blessed I am after all these years. I’d like to think of myself as an eternal optimist because I never let go of my heart’s joy no matter what happens in my life. I am equally surrounded by people who gives me more reasons to be grateful and happy everyday. 

For the following reasons I am eternally thankful.

To have the solid support of my family despite downfalls and backtracks. To keep my closest friends despite distance and time. To find new and genuine friends in college who makes studying Accountancy vibrant and dynamic. To my roommate Lea. To my mentors. To the random people who enter and exit my life but somehow manages to teach me bits of wisdom. To God and His omnipresent love.

It’s heartwarming to wake up to messages like Keith’s text:

Good morning my dear Juna gerl! I wanna be the first to greet you. Tell me if I am. Happy birthday! Thank you so much for EVERYTHING. For the favors you granted me, for the times that you bothered with me, for the tutorials, for all the laughs, for GLEE, for the companionship. I short, you just don’t know how special you are not only to me but to other people. Yes, I sometimes feel honored when I’m walking beside you because you look HONORABLE. Hahahaha. Crazeeeee (laziest juna tone) You always make me laugh! Hahaha you’re such an original! PRICELESS! May you stay: wafa, braytch, sexy, funny, friendly and LAZY. Hahaha. A lot of people like you because you’re a woman NOT ONLY of beauty, NOT ONLY of bounty, BUT ALSO OF SUBSTANCE AND PERSONALITY. Yes, they’re right. BUT, I’m glad that I’m one of the few to witness the vulnerable Juna, the Juna at her lowest,the Juna who’s human and imperfect. Fallible yet true, imperfect yer whole, indispensible yet crazee. Happy birthday again!

This was just too EPIC! Thank you so much Gerl. :) I miss you and you’ll always be one of my treasured friends.

One more outstanding message albeit unexpected was from Boy:

To a girl who lately made me feel that I shouldn’t be judged by anyone because they do not know who I really am, who inspires me so much in the field of English (i.e. public speaking, essay writing). A very strong girl and always brings happiness to her friends despite of the problems she’s carrying, a girl with a big heart and hopefully our next Ms. JPIA (Note: strikethough added by me hahaha). Happy birthday Ms. Juna May Yanoyan. Continue to inspire others.

OMG thank you so much Boy.

I guess they’re right. I always try to make my friends happy and inspire them in any way I can despite problems and issues of my own. It’s my way of escaping the terrors and fears inside me and gobbling them up into depths of happiness and joy.

That’s what I do and who I am so don’t worry dear friends.

I will never change.

PART 2

Just when I thought I was never gonna leave my bed today and that I’m forever alone for my birthday (because it’s Saturday and I’m sick and got no plans),

the same old trick got me. I was getting ready to go out and get money from the bank (cash gift from Tita in the US, thank you iloveyoutita!), my roommate Lea barged into the door and started mumbling incoherent stuff about her mom being annoying and being in an emergency which made no sense in hindsight but I was not listening to her at the time because I was busy reading Facebook wall posts.

She told me to play Adele songs in full volume because she wants to be ‘engulfed’ in the song and let it take away the bad vibes of her day. So I did and kept on trolling the internet waiting for the email from Xoom. I heard a knock at the door and I thought it was one of our other roommates.

When I opened the door people were screaming HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

They were like:

And I was like:

Zane, Ella and Mingkay were standing outside our door, greeting in chorus while I was terrified and screaming at the same time. BLESSMYHEART. I screamed so loud I swear to David Karp.

CONGRATS FOR FREAKING ME OUT AND SURPRISING ME AT THE SAME TIME.

I was very happy but I needed a few minutes to recover from what transpired to be a reenactment from a suspense movie. They brought me Black Forest cake. My favorite. :)

After eating half of the cake, we went out for lunch, my treat this time. :)

We ate at Chicken Inasal at Tiano Bros. Street and it was so ABUNDANT. We had difficulty finishing everything but at least we were full. Happiness!

Later we visited the Limketkai Mall to watch Super 8 and also ate at Missy Bonbon. It was my first time to visit Beauty Bar and Nine West at the East Concourse and it was heaven! I’ll definitely be back there sometime when I can already afford them. Hahaha

PART 3

Meanwhile my ossum family told me they are also celebrating my birthday at home. Thank you mom and dad and bro and sissy. I love you all so much. My sibs are the most adorable and my parents are the sweetest. 

THIS DAY IS OSSUM THANK YOU SELF FOR NOT PASSING OUT DESPITE MY FEVER LAST NIGHT.

Thank you.

Xoxoxo,

Juna

P.S. This post is to be updated throughout the day done and I’m going to sleep now. Thank you Lord for my awesome life. :)

WARNING: Do not read unless you speak gibberish.

I don’t understand how people can be so mean.

I’d like to think that I am a nice person and I try to relate and socialize with the people I deal with everyday without hurting them unnecessarily. People go through shit everyday and the least you can do is live your life without stepping on theirs. I am not only speaking for me but for all the friends and strangers I feel strongly for and see being treated unfairly on a daily basis. Random comments hurt as much as sucker punches. I am not saying that there should no longer be any randomity (not sure if that’s a word) in the world but at least try and make the world be a safer and nicer place to live in.

#GIBBERISHENDSHERE

So last night was fun. It was the first birthday of my inaanak Raeka Yoona. If you’re keeping track I have two goddaughters to date. If you want to contact me for binyagan and future ninang events, Tumblr Ask. #kidding

It was fun catching up with my first year blockmates. The first people I ever mingled with when I stepped into XU. We have relatively different lives and stories now but the friendship continues. What fun, right? It reminds me that time indeed is fleeting and memories and friendships are for keeps.